Starting something new is such a mess.
I’ve started so many things in my life and I still struggle to make a simple first step.
I knew I wanted to write non-fiction in English somewhere in 2018. Then I waited, hesitated and postponed. Writing this post took me 2 years.
“Struggling” doesn’t do the feeling justice, in fact. It was agonizing.
It felt like I couldn’t break free from my own gravity.
But maybe we underestimate gravity.
Just to escape Earth’s gravity, Saturn V – the rocket that took Neil Armstrong and Buzz Aldrin to the Moon – burned 55% of its fuel in the first 3 minutes from its take-off.
That’s over half of its energy on 0.0006% of the flight duration (4550 min), just to get on the right trajectory.
So I guess it’s OK to suffer when starting something new. Breaking free from the gravity of your current habits and your current thinking patterns is a giant leap. It’s anything but easy.
Yet, it’s still worth it.
Reading that won’t make it easier next time we start something new. But it could make us more OK with the struggle.