I had a funny thought last night. I’ve had it before but it always seems funny.
What if I could be OK with everything that’s part of my life right now? What if I don’t want and need anything else, just for a moment? What if I liked everything that was going on, both “good” and “bad”?
Maybe I don’t need to be somewhere else, doing something else? This might be that state of desire-less-ness in Zen that I’ve been trying to wrap my head around. Enough-ness, perhaps.
Even writing that sounds strange. It sounds like having no goals in my life. Where would that take me?
But today it doesn’t feel that strange. It doesn’t feel like not having goals. It feels like being patient and trusting that what I’ve got is exactly what I need to move closer to my goals.
I’m probably at 5% enough-ness right now. It doesn’t even feel good. But it feels new.
And new is big. New is zero to one.